I've been thinking a lot about signs recently.
I don't mean in terms of traffic signs or anything (although in retrospect, had I been thinking more about that then I wouldn't still be digging out chunks of pony from the engine block of my car...). More in terms of how we interpret occurences in our lives and whether or not we can derive any deeper meaning from them or whether or not these things are just random flashpoints that converge on our location at any given point and then pass us by without any more significance that the act itself.
A lot of this thinking has been down to reflecting on a few key decisions that I've made recently that have made a fairly big impact on my life and some of the weird things that have led me to making certain choices and instances that have occured after making said choices that have reinforced my belief that I have ultimately done what I think is best for me and my general state of well-being.
Funny that I should mention belief: I'm not overly religious, mainly on account of not seeing a whole lot of good come from it in terms of wars, etc. That being said, I can also see that for those people that do believe in "God" (whatever form he/she/it may come in), just having that belief can provide comfort and a feeling of belonging in what is increasingly becoming a more uncertain world, so who am I to take that away from anyone if it's not doing me any harm?
So then the question is what do I believe? I believe that something is out there, something that may or may not have my best interests at heart, something that is prepared to let me know when I'm doing something wrong but also prepared to offer me a little hope that I'm getting something right.
Whether it be some kind of bizzare flash-forward to a future that statistically could almost never happen and yet knowing that if that event ever took place then everything would come together, or whether it's reading what is ostensibly nothing more than a drunken Facebook post and instantly becoming clearer about the path you should take because regardless of where that came from, it makes perfect sense. It could even just be how you interpret being stuck behind a horse box on a journey home.
Ultimately, there could be nothing in any of these things and I'm looking for meaning in places there aren't any - however, given the recent run of weirdness that I have been experiencing, it would be foolish to discount the possibility that maybe there is something in the ether that favours a positive outcome and is working hard to that effect.
If nothing else, the fact that I got to reference Ace Of Base in the title of this latest piece of nonsense has made it all worthwhile...
